In English, the above text means “I don’t know what”. Better known as my current situation.
I got rejected by The Lasallian three months ago, didn’t pass the first take of the qualifying exam for Literature majors, and now I got a “thank you and goodbye” from my application to be a Lasallian Ambassador (LAmb). If I don’t see my ID number on this paper containing the QLY-LIM results next week, then I’ve got two words: sore loser. Is it God’s way of telling me “You want these things but I have better things in store for you” or just part of my destiny to be turned down by almost all of the opportunities handed out to me? I am pretty much optimistic I will finally get to major next term, but the fact that I get rejected almost all the time makes me want to cry in a corner.
Seriously though, am I really that bad to get rejected everywhere?
Or am I too blind to realize those failures are actually blessings in disguise?
Everything happens for a reason, indeed. I can’t blame God or myself all the time. Just like the Lasallian alma mater song, “Never shall we fail”.
Come the next recruitment week of the SMO (Student Media Office), I will try my luck again in The Lasallian and probably Green and White. Let’s see if I am meant to be part of one of these publications (other than Malate of course). I cannot be a LAmb anymore because I will have three to terms left so I guess I have to accept I am not meant for it. Honestly speaking, I’d pick passing the retake of the Literature qualifying exam over the LAmb. Besides, I believe being a Literature major is written in the stars for me.
So dear God, please make me a bonafide Literature major so I could defy all the odds.
I just don’t want to feel like a plastic bag drifting through the wind anymore.
